Five Things In Leaving

Left a place, a person, a state of grace, Not my choice, but accepting it nonethless, Did the noble thing despite the screaming inside, Wanted her to see me leave, to see if my leaving mattered, But said 'sure, it's fine, go,' And took myself away, What I left behind were pieces Which never healed … Continue reading Five Things In Leaving

Baby, It’s You

Photo by Pedro Figueras on Pexels.com Tomorrow would have been a day of splendid heraldry. Five years to the day. We had picked out every detail, lost in the tremendous, anxious excitement of a day celebrating our love. The start of everything. That last evening was full of mundane details in which tragedy lent a … Continue reading Baby, It’s You

Worlds

Worlds Where we never met Where I didn't message you Or I died tragically young Terribly old Where I lived in shadow Afraid to let the light touch my soul Worlds Where I didn't Betray my marriage and don't feel Guilt and relief when I look at the space on my finger Where I didn't … Continue reading Worlds

Exposure

  My life was bare walls, no surprises in the laundry hamper, the disappointed relief when you watch porn in the standard browser without worrying if anyone else will check. The sharp relief and then the slow entropic ebb of disappointment afterwards. I'd let go of salon visits and gym sessions without care for the … Continue reading Exposure

Ten Years

I still smell The air of medical struggle, They took you in Sudden but not a surprise, Knowing you were hanging on, Soul packed and ready to fly To better skies than the night Overhead, I'd stayed a year of Saturdays, Bore spousal displeasure, To try and offer up a meagre Sacrifice against the grief … Continue reading Ten Years

Monster in Love

He had fed On battlefield blood, Watched twisted engines, Cut scars into the earth, He had sat at the feet of Ashen gods and beautiful monsters, And watched the light flee, The eyes of a million different Beauties and when she came, She did not fear him, Saw through the alien actions To the ceaseless … Continue reading Monster in Love